Traceyanne Pizzey

The news noone was prepared for

On wednesday night the 18th of may 2005 i had pains thought this is it im in labour and baby will be
here soon,finally got the taxi to hospital for about 11pm got checked over and had to be scanned the
doctor is scanning me pauls by my side and then she says i cant find the heartbeat im gonna get the
other doctor to come in,at first i thought no way its faulty equipment,the doctor finally came in at
11.40pm we sat n waited 40mins so she scanned me and said im so sorry theres no heartbeat i was in
complete shock they then tried for the heartbeat by placing a thing on our babys head nothing.So
then the doctor said i can break ur waters keep u here or send u home,we choose to stay in the
hospital she broke my waters at 12 midnight usually im sick during labour but i think with the shock
kicking in it prevented this,it was such a hard labour and delivery i was crying i was in so much
pain it felt as though the baby was never coming.

I finally delivered a baby girl at 4.05am on 19th may 2005 she weighed 7lbs 15 1/2 oz's she had
curly black hair and was long.When she was born her daddy said "your your brothers double baby"

After such a hard time delivering her i delivered the placenta the midwife barely touched it and it
burst like an old couch i then lost 4 pints of blood and had to have a blood transfusion of 4 units
of blood,i was kept in for two days as they couldnt allow me home as i couldnt even stand,they said
they thought it was a placental abruption which is when the placenta stops working and cuts off the
oxygen and blood supply to the baby.


Getting Home

I left the hospital a few days later with flowers a friend had got me and it just didnt feel right
leaving my baby there we shouldve been so happy going to show her off to the world but we were so
unhappy and sad.the hospital gave us the neccesary paperwork to register her stillbirth etc to then
allow us to orgnaise her funeral.

The funeral

Paul had to fone the funeral director's i just couldnt so we had someone out within a few hours of
phoning them the man who came out was so nice his name was john i think we gave him the paperwork to
allow him to start the arrangements he took down details etc.

Choosing the coffin

He showed us a booklet with the few choices we had for the coffin and we both decided on the little
white one i was in tears while doing this but in the end we both decided on the little white one.

He asked when we wanted the funeral to take place and i instantly replied as soon as possible
please,we gave him details etc of everything so he went away and started to organise it,then to our
horror we got the fone call call telling us the details we were to bury her on 27th may at 11am in
the cemetry i couldnt believe it the 27th was my due date with her so i buried my baby on my due
date strange but so hurtful.

The day of the Funeral

The night before we had traceyanne put into the chapel we arrived and drove into the grounds of the
chapel the place was full everyones eyes were on us i could hardly see for tears we introduced
ourselfs to the hearse drivers and they explained to us what would happen then they opened up the
back of the hearse and i had always said i would try and carry her into the chapel as soon as i seen
that tiny little white coffin i froze i just couldnt do it so ended up the babys uncle did it we
followed behind and everyone else behind us the mass got underway and i couldnt stop crying i
couldnt believe this was happening to us why us i kept thinking,everytime the priest mentioned
traceyannes name i was in tears we got through the mass and came home.

The day of the funeral

We had been up from about 7am couldnt sleep got ready and a few people arrived at the house made our
way downstairs to meet the car that was picking us up we drove into the chapel groubnds and again
everyone was waiting all eyes on us i couldnt stop crying the mass lasted 30 mins or so how i got
through it ill never know i guess u have a strength you dont relise you have,we left the chapel and
made our way to the cemetry and the grave diggers were there already waiting on us the flowers were
all put to the side and her tiny little white coffin laid on the ground the priest started the
burial it was so quick before we knew it she was buried i cuddled into paul the whole time crying my
eyes out everyone was in tears except a few there was people there i didnt expect to turn up after
they buried traceyanne some of the family threw in pink roses beside her i was the first to throw in
the dust,i wished i was there with her i felt like my whole life had ended but i had traceyannes
baby brother and two other sisters to think of.

After the service we came home got the other kids and just sat cuddled in a few people chapped us in
to see we were ok which was nice.

We buried tracyanne in beside family so shes not alone.

Our Return to the grave

We left it about a week or so before we went to see her and my god it was so hard but we done it we
lifted the dried out sponges off her grave took them home and refilled them with artifical flowers
so there is constant flowers on her grave its neat and tidy should anyone go to visit the grave.

We go up as often as we can and more so when its dry and warm,we talk to her etc after all tracyanne
will always be our beautiful baby daughter.

Traceyanne had 4 sisters nicolelorraine,charlotte,baby staceyanne,philomena,she also has 2 brothers
wee paul,and baby shawnpaul,she left behind many cousins,her loving granparents,aunts,uncles,and
cousins all who miss her sincerely.

gone but never ever forgotten always in our thoughts and memories till we met again xx